Salvation and Inner Healing
Being in church, my mom would always feed us the word of God. As a little girl I grew up knowing who God was and what he had done for us, but my dad was drifting off a bit moving further from God as every day passed. I would hope and pray that my dad would stay, but things happened and my father ended up leaving our family for a new one. Of course at the time I did not understand.
Going over to my father's new family, my step sister would always bully me and that sort of was where the problem started. I was angry at my father for not protecting me. That anger followed me for years and my mom would always ask me, "Why are you angry" and I would tell her I didn't know. Being angry caused me to tell my mom I hated her and to always be so ugly towards people. But as years passed I would be wanting to be free and go to God, but something always held me back telling me, "you have time, sit back and relax don't even bother right now" and I would just keep telling myself that.
Finally on Saturday 31, 2018 I had a dream. It was of a pie chart, the pie chart was full of time at first and then there was another one, but this one had less time on it and the number 23 was below it. My thoughts were, "I'm running out of time". The next day, on Easter morning, me and my mom got up early to go to Lakewood. I told my mom the dream and she said, "write down what you hear" and God told me these exact words,"You only have so much time Victoria, stop running from me." I was shaking as I handed my mom back the book and suddenly God had touched my heart, and I rose up to his tug on my heart, the love of God rose me up and I couldn't help but cry, I was saved. The day that God was resurrected was the same day I was saved, April 1st of 2018. After years of being told lies that I was gay and God did not love me, after years of drowning, God only gave me so many chances and he finally pulled me out of the rushing river.